A long break

A very big 'Hi' to all my friends out there. I have missed you all. Very badly. I have missed blogging here. Missed every little happiness I got in here. Here which is my world.

How have you been Adarsh? How have you been my sweet friend Godiva? How have you been Nayan? How have you been Ginni?

Now for you all to know, I have been fine. Living dual lives. I think I had told you about a different blog that I maintain. I blog there. But its nothing like this one. Non-stop non-sense is something really sweet. Isnt it? It was my daily life, my thoughts, my happiness, my Rehan, each one of you, my sorrows and lots of naughtiness of Bebo ;)

I hope to continue blogging here. If not regularly, atleast once in a while.

And oh yes! I forgot. Rehan is getting married on 26th of December- 'The day after Christmas' is how he said it. Probably saying it to others as well :)

Nothing more, nothing less.

Forever,

Bebo

Diamond-Man's best friend!

These robbers bloody got no fashion sense man! Look at the kinda jewellery they have stolen. Chi!

Hmmm…Can’t blame-they are men!

After all diamonds worth 50 million Dirhams. No man can think of his girlfriend and no way of his wife.

Men in black again!

Will you believe? Read this.

No INSAF for Al Insaf Jewellery. Hehe..

Embrasse-moi

Hehe…Hehe…Can’t stop hehe… Mulla is angry. You know why? Because someone kissed Shilpa Shetty.

Me: ‘But why are you getting angry?’

Mulla: ‘No, I am not angry. But just wondering why these media is making a fuss about it?’

Me: ‘Because she wants it.’

Mulla: ‘They come into film industry for this only, everyone knows it. Then why make fuss?’

Before this topic it was the Wafi city (a luxurious shopping mall of Dubai) robbery case.

Well, it made me think too. With this incident Dubai will soon be a 100% HOME AWAY FROM HOME for all Indians.

Mulla mere mulla mere

Hmmm...I was reading my older posts-the very first ones. They are so funny. Now don’t think I am boasting. Well, if you thought so you also need to understand that when I read through the posts I felt as if I was reading somebody else’ blog. I just didn’t feel that it was all my work. The simplicity was something that I noticed. Have I lost it now? Do you think? :-(

Something or the other-I don’t know reading those initial posts of mine about my Bihari ex-colleagues (now) made me hum a song. Guess! Guess! Ok its ‘Kajra re kajra re…tere kaare kaare naina’. They loved that song. It was a hit in Bihar I guess. Hehe.. How bad I am isn’t it? I left that company and I am still so good at making fun of them. Sheesh! Bebo is a bad girl…Bebo is a bad girl…

The colleagues here at my new office are not any less but not to the Bihari extent anyways. You get what I mean right? Well, they are only few. Calculate He + He + Me + She + 6 other youngsters in the warehouse. It’s actually a big team but in 4 different offices.

There is a mallu guy here who is very obsessed with ‘Maula mere maula mere’ song. He listens to it all time and watches its video on google. And what not he even got it on his mobile as the ring tone. One day when I was searching for a new song to play on pc he came up and asked me to play ‘Mulla mere mulla mere’. I wanted to burst out into laughter but controlled because I was new here. I don’t know why I end up having so many funny people around at my work place.

I might not know but my colleagues might be thinking the other way.

Bitter truths smiling at me

Looking at my blog I feel pity just the way I feel for myself sometimes. Was going through one of my very first posts. What a difference isn’t it? Everything changed. My attitude, outlook, my problems, my Rehan, lifestyle, thoughts, wants everything has changed so much. Now I got only problems to mention on blog. And trust me I am fed up writing about it.

‘Forget everything Bebo! Imagine you are in Rehan’s arms. You can feel heaven.’ I keep telling this to myself when I cannot control my tears at times.

At the moment I have so many thoughts on mind. I cant really sort it priority wise. So let me just type and type and type.

Some things that I noticed and realized thoroughly:

Firstly that I NEVER spoke (wrote) nonsense.

Secondly I AM going through a very bad stage of life which is not at all in my favor. Why I specified this is because I hardly realized or tried to accept my problems as something that is unusual. It always seemed to me as something that I thought happened with everyone else-though not to all but to most. But no! My problems are really strange. There is something seriously wrong with either me or with that man. I thought my love for Rehan was a reason, I thought I didn’t want to accept that man in my life, I thought I was wrong and that my mother was right, I thought things would change with time, I thought I was not capable of convincing people, I thought I just had to eat, work and sleep and life would just move on. Probably that’s where I went wrong.

Thirdly that I am EXTREMELY LONELY and I have NO SUPPORT apart from the people who recognize me as Bebo. Support in the maximum they could give. I appreciate and believe me it really helps me stand alone.

People might thinkof how weak I am, always speaking problems, always crying, always sad. Well, what I wish to tell these people is that I AM sad, situation are making me weak, I cry because it is a relief to me and I speak my problems to you because people who actually should be listening are not ready to listen. I am not blaming but realizing truths, accepting it and putting it down in words for some kind of satisfaction I get out of doing so.

Even when matters were getting worse, things went out of control, I had to face the ruthless (in every sense you could imagine) behavior of that man I did not want to blame anyone for the circumstances. Not even myself. Yes, I certainly didn’t want it this way, though I expected things to be normal and not abnormal. Isn’t it very normal to expect so much atleast?

Feeling much relieved now. The above mentioned are not just some words or lines, it speaks all what I have been carrying like a weight in my heart. Feel like I just spoke to a very close friend. Blogging does help-atleast for Bebo.

Logics....hmmm....

"I dont know why, my logics never work in your case."

His logics didnot work in her case too....

Now.....

Now I wonder if his logics ever worked with anyone.

Or perhaps his logics never existed.