Once again-Absolutely myself.

Today again I wish to be all myself. My last post was not really meant to hurt someone very special to me. I wrote what I felt only from my viewpoint. It had hurt Rehan very badly not because of anything else but because I put him in the group of two people who were bad-never good to me. And I hope I don’t need to explain to my friends here that I didn’t mean to hurt him. I was only writing down my mind-my thoughts.

Basically, I was trying to point out three reason that helped me change my attitude towards life and which made me stronger. They two must be bad but Rehan can never be bad to me. I felt ditched. I might feel it again. I don’t see anything wrong. Be it Rehan’s fault or mine-our love did not succeed. I blame myself sometimes and blame Rehan sometimes. But whatever our love did not succeed into a bonding for life time.

For Rehan: “Honestly tell me. Don’t you feel ditched sometimes?”
That should answer all your questions and calm you.

He is happy that I am mentally much strong now and trying hard to be completely independent. He loves me lot and I love him too. I still want to tell him the same things that I told him over the phone.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you. You are one of the few experiences that I had in life which helped me be strong and you should be proud of it. It’s not anyone else but your Bebo who has written that post. Feel the change in her. Read the strength in her through her words. Are you not happy?”

My friends on the blog have always supported me. They have only thought the way I thought because I have only explained to them my thoughts through my blog. It must be true that they are only analysing my part. But I am also sure when I write CERTAIN posts they all know it that it is one of the many outbursts of mine beacuse they also know how much I love Rehan and I cannot write something purposely to hurt him.

Don’t you know it?