Before posting this I was really wondering if it is possible to mention my very feelings in words or not and even if I did my best if anyone who reads can feel my pain or not. With all these doubts on mind I still posted a sensitive issue concerned with none but me is because I cannot keep it in mind all alone any longer. I am feeling very helpless & weak. I am sure I have not mentioned every single matter in the post not because I don’t want to but it is not possible. For that either I have to be in a different mood or I should have to be extremely dirty like my Jeeju.
I am in a very strange state of mind. A guilt feeling haunting me all day & night-why did I trust him? And even if I did why did he take advantage of my trust in him? The thought of he following me from office to college, watching my private moments with Rehan, pleasure he had in mind when I cried uncontrollably, when I got tensed and so many more. What ultimately did he want from me?
posted by Bebo @ 3:53 pm
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My first time here. Everybody says - "Time will heal any wounds". But nobody says how much time? day? week? year? or life time? . But hang in there. 'Soon' it will be little less hard. 'Soon after' it will fade out.
- somebody who knows where it hurts and how much.
he did that maybe coz he wanted you to get married to the guy he came up with (?)
Aashun, I wish you had visited my blog earlier or lil later. You read one of the saddest post :-( But still want to thank you!
Lady Godiva, that was later dear. The prosposal came by chance but the way it was fixed was weird. Cos it all happened in a week's time. I did have a doubt then.
@ darsh
After a long gap you have completely purged out your inner thoughts in front of us. Darsh why dont you consult all these things with your mother, parents are beautiful creation of god who in return mold our personality and character, if they cheat us then I am sure it would be anyhow good for us. I am sure she will show the right path. Your post is full of dilemma and confusion. I know it hurts most when you found yourself cheated by someone but you have to become strong and believe in your own strength. DEPENDENT is the useless word in dictionary which needs to be changed but nevertheless don't forget your roots.
I know everything will soon become NORMAL
so dont worry and face the rise and fall of your life BOLDLY and BRAVELY.
well.... i m unable to comprehend... to be frank. neways.... just forget it.
don't think abt it (i know its easier said than done but still)
in our kgp lingo.... "peace maaro naa yaar" :)
TC n you-know-what :)
Oh MY GOD !!!! (the earlier comment was posted before reading the story beneath)
I mean.... HOW !!!
koi aisa nahin kar sakta hai .... this is too muchh.
sach kahun to ur jeeju is way way more pervert than ******* (sorry for the language)
don't let him know that you know..... be 100 % assured....and i mean one HUNDRED % assured..... and just expose him. It may not change nething.... but at least every1 will know what he did.(right now I am concerned abt ur sis... it will be very tough on her.)
BE BRAVE... BE CONFIDENT.... BE BOLD..... and yes... BE EXTRA SMART :P
TC
Nayan, I dont understand why I always need to learn things the tough way.Bold...brave..strong...normal??Is it possible to be so? Do you think so?Sincerely temme? I guess you havenot read the post before this.
Adarsh, I felt exactly the same wat you mentioned abt him. Otherwise if ever he took me as a sister he would have done something else in this case rather than playing a dirty game like this. Why would he follow me from office to college? Why would he want to know what I am doing in life? Whether I have a bf or not? Watch my private moments with Rehan? Was he not enjoying it?Was he not enjoying it when I cried,when I got tensed, when I stopped meeting Rehan, when I went around him in his car bunking college to spy on ppl whom I had a doubt on.I was confused when I found out the bastard who played with my life..my emotions, but not anymore. He is a bastard who wanted nothing else but 'THAT' from me. What do you think?
But Adarsh, I feel so low, helpless, weak.
Darsh, i read the whole story before posting the comment.
Self reinforcement is the most trusted guard.
I do agree that ur jeeju did such a malicious act
I mean how could he typed those stupid things
and forwarded you !!
sick !!
anyways if you want to survive
believe in YOURSELF and be INDEPENDENT.
hv mailed you....
Nayan, :-(
Adarsh, got it dear!
Im not good at relationship talk,but what I get from your post is a formula of a hindi pot-boiler. [:P]
The villian guy has a sweet lady as his saali & has an ego of the size of an ostrich egg. He can't see her living an independent & happy life cuz he thinks he is the reason she is happy..
So when he sees the girl take flight ,his animal instincts take over,, he wants onto hold onto the canary,, The smart & intelligent women taking decisions of her own life hurts his already bruised ego so he hatches a pathetic plot to break the lady & ruins her smile & life...
But given the strong will she has finds out the truth & will strive for what's RIGHT,, it may not be a rose laden path but she has to standup & fight..
Sh d I see this.. U gotta be headstrong..beat him at his own game.. show him u r happy & cheerful despite all the ups & downs..
best of luck..
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