Hum hai iss pal yahan, jaane ho kal kahan...

“If we are meeting 98 days out of 100, why is it that we should take extra effort to meet on these two days? I just don’t understand.”

When I had evening classes at college, I used to meet him everyday. Even if it means to make me wait for 1½ hour, he somehow managed to come pick me to drop me at college and back home. Well, I have always appreciated that. But I was so madly in love that even though we used to meet all week-everyday, I still wanted to meet him on Fridays (holiday in UAE) when I had extra classes before my 2nd yr B.B.A exams in last June. Poor guy had only one day off from work & I would force him to come and meet me even on that day.

Honestly, I had no other intentions, but I always had a bad feeling in mind that things may end soon & there would come a day when I cant meet him even if I wish to. Just didn’t want to regret in life, that I didn’t take a chance or I missed a chance of meeting and spending some time with my-only my Rehan. He never behaved like me. Probably, it was the age factor that didn’t let him act crazy like me.

“Jaana, I wish I was a 21 or 22 year old guy, I would elope with you so that you will be mine forever.”

Last evening he wanted to meet me badly, but I felt that something was wrong somewhere. I didn’t let him come to pick me. I am just not regretting anything today because I am sure; I had never missed even a single opportunity to meet him in the past 1 year. Those lines (mentioned in the beginning) was some ruthless words that fell out of him, when I told him I wanted to meet him one Friday. It definitely did make me think that I should not be so desperate to meet him & should give him some space.

I am not trying to justify my part or blame him but it just happened that at the present situation I can’t meet him and things really have come to end the way I thought once it would be. Just rewinding my own calculations about life & future I had, in contrast he used to live only in present & never thought about future. I used to constantly tell him that we should think of future & he used to argue with me by saying that we should only think of present.

Current calculations = Able to talk to you on phone + can chat online + really happy about it + little scared + may have to give it up soon.

But never forget we live under the same sky.

Hum hain iss pal yahan, jaane ho kal kahan…
Hum miley na miley, hum rahey na rahey…
Rahegi sadaa yahan, pyar ki ye dastan…
Sunenge sadaa jise, yeh zameen asmaan...